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I am back

Submitted by afoy on

The last months, I havent watch any porn movie at all.. and I had some great sex with my girlfriend, but it's strange, now, this week, I really want to watch porn, I know it's not good for me, but I am wondering if I should force me to not watch it..

I will try.

day 27, first erotic dream

Submitted by afoy on

I orgasm during the night (nocturnal emission) and wake up. I think the recovery is on it's way, cause when I use masturbation/porn I never had this kind of dream.

I still want to masturbate (no more watching porn.. but I know that one will lead to the other).. so I will not. Hope to manage to resist.

The moral is ok.

18 days

Submitted by afoy on

Moral was good this week, looking for the future opportunities at work (cool), so it's ok.

But I am really tempted to masturbate, I haven't any girl now.. so it's a bit frustrated.
But I manage to stick to my will, and stop PMO, each time I want to masturbate I do some gym exercice and things go ok.

No blue balls problem any more.

12 days

Submitted by afoy on

hmm, now it start to be serious.. Today I really want to masturbate.. but I am trying to avoid it.. hope I will resist, it should be easier I guess in some days.

About the moral, not going really good, don't know why, maybee not having my dose of porn.. maybee the work.

But I will continue, until I reach the 90 days or more.

7 days no PMO

Submitted by afoy on

I manage to stop masturbation completly and I feel good during this week.

Tonight I was with a girl, (first met), we kiss for a long time but didn't had sex tonight, she went back to her place. I feel excited. But now.. I have pain in my ball and in lower abdomen.. first time I had that.. it really hurts I think it's due to abstinence.. and huge excitation.

I will try to go with it tonight, hope it will pass.
Any of you have experimented same behavior ?

1 day no PMO.

Submitted by afoy on

It's my second try for rebooting, some month ago I manage to stop porn for more than 3 months. It was difficult at the beginning.
I had a girlfriend, but I get some problems: cumming to fast (less than 5 minutes). So I restart masturbation.. and finaly in less that a month I start porn again.