October 10th

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So I went to the show last night. It was excellent. After I picked up some food at went to a friend's house to watch this show called the League, about a group of guys in a fantasy football league. In the one we watched there was some obvious triggers. I walked away but when I came back it was still on. Same things for the next episode. Anyways I woke up today, and withen like 15 minutes I was on the computer searching for porn. Today was day 3 for me but now its back to 0. I don't think the fallout will be that bad cause I didn't view that much but I did search for a long time. So I guess I'll do my best to keep it to only once today.

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Ok

Sorry I'm not being very clear here, I hope this will clear things up. I'm 21 years old, addicted to porn and trying to do a reboot. It's been a lengthy one, about 18ish months now after I had found yourbrainonporn.com. Long story short, the first time I tried to have sex I couldn't get it up. I was 19, and after it happened I searched online for something to make sense of it all. My first attempt was 42 days, then I releapsed hard and have been struggling ever since. I think I wrote all of this when I first signed up here but it has been a long, long time. I havent really posted in a while but I've always read people's reboot story's since I'd found this website because it helps me stay on track.

Today I masterbated to porn. I dunno if reading this would be a trigger to anyone but in the show I saw, the guys were shooting a porno in their friends house. And then it was played in the next episode. I was just saying that this might have had an impact on why I PMO'd today, but i guess that I really dont know if it did. It's usually a slippery slope from when I PMO once to doing it 2 or 3 times that day, and when I said I wanted to keep it to only once today I just meant that I didn't want to slip up again today. I want to go 90 days porn, masterbation, and orgasm free.

I want to try karezza after I finish my reboot and get a girlfriend, but I think that's going to be a while. For now I just want to take it one day at a time and keep myself accountable by posting my progress here.

Sorry i havent posted in a while

I've been busy with school and stuff.

Recently i've wanted to wait until I felt ready before I go out and talk to some girls. I just think that it'll take some time until I start feeling like myself. But I think ima go against that and ask out this girl in one of my classes. We started talking recently and I think she's into me.

Yeah I might start masterbating on a schedule or something in a few weeks because it might be easier for me to abstain from porn.
Unfortunately I PMO'd today but I kept it to a minumum and I felt alright for the rest of the day. I really only made me realize how much I want to be porn free. I went to the gymn yesterday, and Im going to keep it up until my pass runs out. That and I'm going to try to meditate everyday, before I go to sleep or something.

Thanks for the support,
Along The Way