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I had an interesting experience this morning with my imagination.

A couple of days ago I had some very disturbing experiences that pushed me into a steep emotional nose-dive. One of them was connected with a Reiki share in which one of the recipients was breathing very heavily during the session (I have never experienced anything like it before). Her sounds triggered a very intense sexual arousal in me and the feeling that I couldn't do anything about it. Feelings of sexual arousal in me tend to trigger depression because I know that going into them without restraint ends in frustration. Women who share my interest in a healing approach to intimacy don't exist around here for all practical purposes. I couldn't talk about what I was going through nor could I express my frustration. I tried to initiate a conversation later on with the only other fellow present but he just seemed to be interested in giving me advice.

The other experience was connected with my doctor saying that there was nothing more he could do for me (even though my health is still far from ideal). So my mood plummeted.

As I went down, I pondered what kind of world I want to live in (since most of my fantasies when I'm in moods like this are about how to exit this world as painlessly as possible). What came to mind was a world dominated by loving relations. It reminded me of a poem I read by Walt Whitman: "I Dream'd in a Dream"

I dream'd in a dream I saw a city invincible to the attacks of the
whole of the rest of the earth,
I dream'd that was the new city of Friends,
Nothing was greater there than the quality of robust love, it led the rest,
It was seen every hour in the actions of the men of that city,
And in all their looks and words.

The only word I would change in this poem is the word "Men" to "People". It was written in the 19th century, so I can forgive him.

So dream I did. I also decided to frame my imagination in such a way that it would look and sound to my mind as if it were real right now. It had a hugely positive effect on my mood. The little boy in me is relieved. Some say that doing this sets the ground work for manifesting it. I sure hope so.


John of God

I've heard of him, but haven't seriously considered him primarily due to the imagined expense (Brazil is a long way to travel). I've got a lead on a local hypnotherapist who might help. I have support from a naturopath who practices homeopathy and has recovered himself from my physical symptoms. The fellow from the Reiki meeting seems to be opening a little. Perhaps that will help with the social aspects of healing.

I'm very aware that my health concerns have connections to the way our culture celebrates a disconnect between sex energy and love. I tend to do what I can to make that connection within myself whatever the situation. It's rarely easy and yet I seem to be continuing to do it in my own stumbling sort of way.

Thanks for the idea!



You should check out some of

You should check out some of Neville Goddard's books (Power of Awareness, Awakened Imagination), he saw the bible and its authors as different states of human consciousness, and maintains that we are ALL imagination. You'll need to have a really open mind but i would def recommend him.

Neville Goddard

Thanks for the idea. I'll look into him when I can.

My favorite recent read was Mikhail Naimy's "The book of Mirdad". For a seeker, this book is pure gold!