Well, I MOed twice in the last week. I don't want to make excuses or anything, just to say that I missed up. Both times it was to get that release, that relaxed feeling so I could go back to sleep again. I find myself waking up too early these days, and then if I can't get back to sleep I start stressing. The way to get back to sleep, almost always, is to MO. So I did that twice.
But I have a new idea. I'm just going to try to get to bed earlier. I'm hoping that will allow me to get the sleep I need, and not feel like I have to MO to get back to sleep.
But the good news is, I still haven't looked at any porn. And with the exception of a handful of times, I really haven't had much of a desire to.
Of course, each time I orgasm, and particularly when I MO it seems, I have a few days where I feel pretty flat emotionally, and I don't feel that much for my girlfriend. Well, she is out of town for a week, so I'm going to have a week to fully rebound without any orgasm and see how things go.
I still just kinda have this stressed anxious feeling. I haven't been very relaxed lately. Maybe it's the other things going on in my life, or maybe it's that I'm still orgasming too much (I orgasm during sex still).