Well I successfully made it a week without PMO or MO. Actually it has been 8 days. I did have sex with my girlfriend 5 days ago, no orgasms since then.
I feel somewhat numb, actually. I saw my girlfriend last night and had pretty much zero sex drive. Honestly, I have very little desire for anything sexual at this point, event PMO. In some ways that's nice I guess, but I want to get that feeling of desire back.
Low libido has been a problem of mine, off and on, for about 7 years. Just before the HOCD started. And my HOCD is flaring up again now too, it's hard to feel like you are attracted to women and not to men, when your sex drive is so low. Although I know the key to beating HOCD is accepting the possibility you might be attracted to men. That's been a very hard thing for me to do.
I also didn't sleep much last night, so I that probably isn't helping things.
So I am going to keep going, but I'm feeling pretty blah at the moment. I hope this part doesn't last too long.