Well everyone this is another try, to try to stop this P habit. I almost have this feeling inside like I don't really want to let it go, but I know i want to let it go. But deep down there is this nagging feeling of "Oh yeah, you know we'll be back."
I know how much this habit has hurt me, and I know how much time I have wasted, yet it seems like it really is all I know. I am one of those guys who started PMO at like 11 or 12, so for me it's gonna be hard. I guess alot of it has to do with not wanting change. I label myself as an introvert, but I see alot of guys who talk about who they are actually extroverts after abstaining for some time, so I guess part of me is scared to almost have to "start over" once I get to a good point. Like say I have a month under my belt, and I'm feeling really social,
I feel like I am going to "go back to my 12 year old mind", and have to play catch up. I realize these are excuses, but have some sympathy?