Yesterday was really good actually no.type of.depressing thoughts and Marnia you were right about those cold showers and sleep. I took one at about 9 and went to sleep at about 2 hours earlier than normal. I slept really hard too so when I woke up I was actually tired.But today has been a different story been pretty irritated because of my mom we don't get along very well. And I was actually feeling really good until i got over here.At the moment I'm feeling kind of "numb" at the moment. The guys at YBR said that it them a pretty long time before they reached their "peaks" and got their emotions back and felt like their old selves again.Which is understand able, I can't wait until I have that "refreshed" feeling again. Right now the day's still grey it's just not raining. Instagram's gone the next Is going to be twitter probably it's just to many triggers of the stuff that brought me here in the first place I can't let my brain get its "meds" off of this stuff again. I'm going to draw like a concept web of my whole story because it seems kind of unusual why I experienced certain things when I experienced them so i think it's going to be good for me to figure it all out. Oh, and work was great today too made a lot of people laugh today and it was cool to be the "center of attention" once again.