Caved in and looked at pics again I always seem to get triggered by social media.I also came close to relapsing but stopped myself because ive came waaaay to far to backtrack now. Then soon after I went to see A Haunted House 2 which had some really triggering scenes so after all of those massive dopamaine highs I had yesterday I was hoping that maybe I would have a wet dream still no luck in that yet.Now this morning im sort of having thoughts like depressing thoughts about being gay. But its not even hocd its just something that's been on my mind. Its like all of the things that I once found interesting arent interesting anymore TV, social media ,texting nothing. I take this because my brain is desensitized so I dont find natural things rewarding anymore. Im going to delete twitter today its only trigger related for me.Even though I'm not relapsing im not improving at all.