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5 Days no PMO, 3 days without junk food - Some Thoughts

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I have been feeling a tad more confident, but I also find that my mood or attitude is very unstable. At times I can be energized and in other moments I feel tired and not willing to be active. However, I'm keeping up with the discipline challenge, especially in the gym, doing some housework or cooking at least one of my meals and reading aspects.

There were moments during the day in which I wondered what I was doing at home instead of being at college, but I already fucked that up real bad, so I need to focus on self improvement.

Back in the Reboot Train

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So, today I had a very fluctuating mood. I had trouble waking up at 8 am (the only thing I didn't follow of the challenge), and then went to the gym. I felt physically deteriorated, but that is off course, because I binged on sweets yesterday and still have to settle my schedule of sleep.
I have experienced that when I eat a lot of junk fod, especially foods loaded with sugar, for a prolonged time, my body starts aching.

I'll Embrace Pain and Will Try to Find a Meaning to My Life

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This will be my last post for a while. I have an insane amount of things to catch up right now and wasting time here would kill me.
I have some worries and they are the following:

1. If I have trouble getting a strong erection (ever since August last year I have trouble getting really turned on with porn) with porn, does that mean that the same will happen in the real life? Or is it a matter of time without watching P and having orgasms?

Once Again to Day 0

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So I relapsed on day 17 and sort of binged until today. I have to stand up again stronger. My second week at university wasn't good. I procrastinated a lot and that lead to being unconfident in and out of class. Throughout the week I had constant mood swings and overall I was quite down, without interest in other people and sometimes I just wanted to get home.

I think I need to start going out every saturday with friends or at least go to a club alone to meet people, or do you think it is a bad idea?

End of Day 12 - Kinda Worried

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Lately I've been kind of grieving PMO and binging on junk food. Urges haven't been strong yet, but they were powerful enough to show up in my dreams. I know this is happening because I haven't replaced both of those habits with more beneficial outlets.

I definitely have to be more social. I've been procrastinating a bit, but nothing compared to what I used to in the past. I will go until friday without internet, unless it's for homework. I NEED to get past this week.

Day 11 - Smooth Progress

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My first week of university was a success. Nothing extraordinary happened, but nothing bad occured either. I've been consistently working out and taking cold showers and both of them have given me well being.

I've been trying to discover who are the good students in my classroom and I already have a few of them pointed out. Also, I have pretty much solved the transportation issues (my university is a bit retired from everybody's home). Some days I pick up a couple of guys who live close to me and other days they pick me up.

Day 6 - Back to Studying

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I took a cold shower and didn't feel tired at all during the day. At first it was hard, but then I got accustomed (I did it all the way cold, with no heat). It definitely gives you vitality.

As for my first day of university, it went good, teachers seem to be competent and I'm already busy. That's why I won't post again until friday, when I'll give you a global update about every aspect of my new life.

Looking Forward to Tomorrow

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So basically what I didn't tell you is that on the first year all the engineering careers take the same subjects, so the groups are mixed. I'm in one way pissed and in other comfortable with my group. Pissed because there are only 7 girls (only 1 of them is mildly attractive and the others are decent or kind of ugly) in a class of 29 people. Besides, after meeting my group, all the careers were split, so that someone could give us a talk about our career and I saw plenty of pretty and hot girls, but none of them is in my classroom! I also saw a girl that instantly caught my eye.

Day 5 - Small Update

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I already had the induction at my university. On the first day, it was held at the old location of the university and there was basically no room to socialize, since it consisted of a presentation that the directors of the university did, so that we could get to know the basic facts about it. It lasted two hours.

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