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Back In Action

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I finished 4wks of cold showers last month and found it really helpful and PMO was reduced greatly.

I thought I would use this will power to get off the PMO completely but the last week I've been having O every day and just gave in to porn. I feel so stupid. Just when I thought I had the will to get over this thing.

I want to post here to hold myself accountable. I promised myself that if I gave in to PMO again I would go back to cold showers and that is what I'm going to do. One month was great, but I think 3 months will really help me kick the habit.

Day 15 - Dating Advice Please

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Hi, It's day 15 and still going strong. I did have a wet dream after the first week which did seem to set me back a little bit.

There's a girl I've been dancing with for a while. She's a good friend and I've always seen her as more like a sister; but recently I find myself being romantically interested in her. I want to ask her out but I don't want to hurt our friendship. I was thinking of calling her and finding out where we stand with each other but maybe she wants a man of action and I should just sweep her off her feet the next time I see her?

Just Relapsed - Thought I Would Have Progressed By Now

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Just relapsed and I really thought I would be through this thing by now. I want to upgrade to other parts of the forum rather then feeling like I'm stuck here in this rebalancing area!

The thing that seemed to work in the beginning was giving daily accountability so I'm going back to that. I don't want to spam the forum with my comments so I'll just add updates daily and post once a week.

246 Hours & First Signs Of Positivity

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Just hit the 246 hour mark of being PMO free and this is the first day I've started to feel positive about my life. So I suppose it's taken around 10 days to get here.

Marking off the hours is working great for me. Every time I get an urge I just have to hold on till the next hour. Postponing for an hour is much easier than trying to quit permanently.

Nothing much else to report. Just checking in.

109 Hours PMO Free

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I've decided to go hour by hour as one day is just too long. I'm hoping it will also help me just to stay in the moment.

I have some graph paper and I just mark off each hour as it goes by. My goal is 2160 hours, or 90 days PMO free. It's kind of encouraging as the hours go by pretty quick and I feel like I'm making progress. Over 100 hours already! Which is only 4 days, LOL.

Relapse Today But More Positive Than I've Ever Been

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I almost made it to the 30 day mark (day 29), then a silly relapse.

I woke up in the morning with fantasies so jumped out of bed to avoid any MO but went to the computer and ended up with P. Talk about jumping out of the frying pan and into the fire!

Even though I had a relapse today, over the last week I've never been more positive in my life. I'm writing a book, asking a girl I dance with out on a 'friend date' and just more positive about life in general.

Dealing With PE

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I went dancing tonight and almost had a slip up. One of the girls was letting me dance with her with full body contact and it was really nice to experience her opening up to me. We had our thighs against each other and I started to get a partial erection but then I felt myself getting ready to have an orgasm!

This stopped me from being able to fully enjoy the moment, as obviously I wanted to avoid any embarrassing scenes.

Why Don't I Do What I Know I Need To Do?

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Just finished a couple of days of looking after my little daughter, finished some work this afternoon and was looking forward to going to a social dance tonight but when I got there the anxiety and tiredness got to me and I turned around and drove home.

The thing is I knew what I really needed at that moment was to socialize, but I don't know... I guess the tiredness got to me, and the fear of not fitting in... I didn't give myself a chance to find the healing I needed.

Just Checking In

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Technically it's been 2 wks since P although I was really annoyed at myself yesterday because I was waiting to go dancing and the cravings were really bad so I did some meditation, fell asleep and had a wet dream. I know it's pretty much automatic but I was angry with myself because I was holding off to give that energy to the girls I was going to be dancing with.

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