Ok. New day, new start.
I'm new here. I'm struggling with a PMO addiction for a long time now. I can't stay PMO free for a long time. Never got over 10 days in the past 2 years. 3 years ago i achieved 60 days.
So ok, i'm 21y.o. and still a student. At home most of the time, to study. But PMO is making me depressed, and the withdrawal is making me anxious each time, so i've dropped out of my past two exams. I need to be PMO-free, before i can continue with my life. It's a priority.
I know that i'm very prone for addictions, and i've beaten my binge-drinking addiction for 3 months now (woohoo!).
But ok, PMO keeps me in trouble. Relapsed yesterday after a 9 day no-PMO. Experiencing brain fog now, and dumbness. The first 6 days of my no-PMO period, i experienced severe anxiety, up to the point that i've started to cry.
I relapsed to SC porn, so ok, let's put it like this to keep me motivated:
I'm still HC porn-free, so i'm doing good. I know that cold turkey isn't something for me, because i know i need to change my behaviour. And when i do it to drastically, i dont really change my behaviour, but i supress it.
But ok, i'm still going to try. Only this time i'm going to try something new:
No P, but only MO.
I'm going to change myself slowly. But i don't want total abstinence for now (cfr. not going to quit cold turkey).
Second of all, i'm going to try not to MO when bored, but only when aroused.
Wish me luck, i will need it.