Relapse!! PM, but no O. Jesus, I can't believe that I didn't have the strength and self control. This time angry, I'm not disappointed, but I'm angry with my self. Been taking it out on people at work today. Not a good way to handle my own failures....
At least I didn't O, I din't binge and I the session only lasted for about 10 minutes or so. Then my rage hit hit me... I can be very harsh on myself. This time I deserved it.
Ok. I still won't reset any counting or think to much about it. I don't care if it's not according to the manual, that's how I'm planning to handle it.
Why did I relapse then?! I spent the weekend in Barcelona. Met a girl there (funny enough she where actually swedish). I where definitively struck by her beauty and cool style (I've always been attracted to rockers). Problem is that I where to "on" when I made my move. Way to obvious and she had to have thought that I where desperate. Anyhow she teased, basically in a cruel way (Actually not cool by her in any way). I guess I relapsed due to frustration and the rejection. OK, lets pick up the fight again!