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Day 1 no MO, Day 4 no P

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I've been very aroused lately, spending time with the opposite sex and getting into those conversations where it's better to have not started them at all led me to MO, but no Porn. I tried to masturbate with minimal fantasy, just focusing on the feelings that touch provided. Wow, I have to say that although I enjoyed it, my erection was at like 30-40% most of the time and that was without my deathgrip, light touch instead with lubrication.

Day 4 no PMO

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Today is day 4! The first 2 or 3 or harder for me than the next 2, usually the third day where I have to watch myself more closely before my thoughts snowball into eachother. Gotta get 2-3 hours of studying in tonight, rock n roll!

Day 1 No PMO

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Okay, after spending an hours worth watching some of the most horrifying and strangely erotic (see what porn does? It escalates into the wierd)internet porn, I'm attempting to abstain again. No more, leaves you feeling empty inside. In fact, that's what made me realize it is an addicition, using it to cover up emptiness. Now mind you, I know people who do the same thing with sex. They go out and fuck random people to get validation, fills a gap inside of them, well it covers it temporarily anyways. Kinda hard to find anything genuine through an orgasm I guess.

Day 1

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Wonder what how much porn addiction depletes dopamine receptors...some guys on here have commented on how much more clear headed and focused they are after a period of abstinence...reading a book right now that mentions how an overflooding or lack of dopamine both affect concentration. Studying at the moment, gonna start journaling later on for the first time. Later yo

Why...does...this...have...to...suck so much?!?!?

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Ok, woke up this morning and MO but NO porn. Thought about accessing some on my phone since k9 doesn't have an app for for android phones. Damnit. I fantasized about an actual living person so I guess that's better than m to p? Prob still set me back. Maybe I should just stay away from my friend who even though I have been trying VERY hard to fend off her massage requests (she is relentless, seems to need one every 5 seconds), I end up giving them otherwise she won't leave me alone. Blackmail.

Day 2

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Okay, so this is day 2 since my relapse of PMO, before that I had gone over a month w/out porn. That's actually a really long time, since I really like porn. I still couldn't maintain an erection even watching porn, wtf. Anyways, back on the wagon so to speak, a very long, hard and painful wagon. But at least wagons have wheels to move forward, better than walking! I have no idea if that makes sense to anyone other than me, but then again it's MY blog hahaha.

Relapse! Damn

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I guess even giving a friend a massage is enough to override my discipline. Relapsed with MO then PMO just a few minutes ago. I don't feel good about it but I'm still going to continue to try and abstain, I won't ever not continue. Thx for the support, I could use it. The urges are really annoying, I've got to try that coldwater technique, I'll have to find it on ybop.

Day 6...

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Another day, 84 days (minimum) to go. Hmmm...cravings more tolerable than they were back in August, especially when I get out of my place to do something, anything lol. Going to focus more on eating a cleaner diet more consistently, consistency is key. To everybody else, good luck and godspeed!

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