Things are great. We have sex almost every day and really enjoy each other so much.
She still says that she doesn't have the same feelings as I do. I have sent some of Rachel's posts on breasts and quotes from Richardson and I think she's reading it. I'm kind of working with her in a light way sometimes to focus on her breasts. And I'm not touching them with my hands so as not to evoke a defensive reaction. (Thanks Rachel for your amazing posts.)
My partner has never meditated or focused her thinking that way and it's new to her.
Yesterday we went to dance and it was such a lovely experience touching and being close that way during the day when normally we are sort of separate. Over night I kept waking up and thinking of her. This morning very early she woke me up (which I love) and we had this wonderful intercourse that was nicer than usual.
I'm becoming more and more of a fan of dancing and, if you don't have a partner, dance lessons and dancing. It is so great! Especially partner dancing. I noticed there is a country western place and there are a ton of unaccompanied girls. If I was looking I'd be there all the time. Have fun, dance, be close to girls, and chat them up. What fun!
I think she's finally starting to wake up to wanting to feel more than she does. She said she doesn't feel that much. It's pleasant but not the kind of feelings I get. She is 16 days from O last time. And it's been over seven months since we started this Karezza adventure.
It may take her awhile but when she gets it, she gets it. She'll wake up to this sooner or later, I'm sure.
I was re-reading an early post I made in February when I was worrying about my erections. I no longer worry about them. I don't manually stimulate my penis and I get spontaneous erections without effort. If she's not into it that de-energizes me, of course, but generally I have erections for as long as I want. They may go down a bit but they come back on their own when it's a good idea for them too.
Looking back I'd say it took me a good six months to really reboot and become a full on Karezzanaut. I still haven't orgasmed and it's been seven months and I have such amazing incredible feelings now when we have sex. The other day I almost came but did some simple techniques to avoid it and I didn't.
We don't have intercourse for longer than maybe 20 minutes because she isn't yet in a mode where she is focusing enough for that. But as I say, I think we'll get there. Your thoughts always appreciated.