The end of July will be a year of starting this journey. I've looked at no porn in this time and started masturbating on a semi-regular basis for the last 5-6 months. In the last 2 months, I have finally had successful sex with a condom. I had sex 3 times and used cialis twice. I also received oral sex 2 times without a condom. Additionally, normal libido has returned and I am starting to having horny feelings again on a regular basis.
All of this has boosted my confidence a lot and i'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Although I still need a lot of manual stimulation to get an erection, I am fully confident that I can get one in a sexual situation and with an understanding girl. Even when I lose it, I can and have gotten it back. Although ED is starting to get under control, I have started having premature ejaculation.
I think that if I continue to have regular sex with girls that I am comfortable with, this will eventually go away also. I am also masturbating with lube to reduce anxiety and sensitivity. I can masturbate (with stops when I'm about to cum) for pretty much as long as I want and stay hard. I am certain that my PE is all due to anxiety.
I am looking forward to the day where I can have sex normally again like when I was younger. I've accepted the fact that I will probably always need manual stimulation and will probably never be a "sex god" but I'm hoping to just have satisifying sex the standard 5-10 minutes. I think I'm close and wIll keep everyone updated on my progress!