my story and challenge

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hello all. some key info about me:
male
19
freshman in college
started looking at porn since i was 12
had 3 troubled sexual attempts (ED)
tried 3 or 4 times rebooting, but nows the time.
ive gone 8 days of no PMO, but failed.

during some of my reboots seemed to be successful, but i always fell back into PMO when thinking about women in general, just my mind dozing off into fantasy, ive had this problem since i was 12. i would constantly fantasize, watch porn, masturbate. looking back at it i was so addicted its fucked up. im too the point where porn doesent even arouse me anymore. when i think about fantasizing, i cnt even feel anything down there. all my life, i turned down girls because "ehhh they're not that good looking" (which i was comparing girls to porn.) i never realized this until i found YBOP. everything seemed to make sense, i always thought it was because of accutane. but i highly doubt it, im 19 and i have normal testosterone which i got checked by my dr about 3 months ago. when i tried rebooting, ive made it to 5, 7, and 8 days in a row but i always fell into the trap. i saw some positive changes like increased change in mood, stamina, libido, even talking/looking at a girl was getting me a little little aroused, i definitely felt a huge change. real life women to porn women, HUGE DIFFERENCE. i was being selfish and disgraceful, but im so done screwing up my life. Im a good lookin dude who has the body anyone would want, so im up for the challenge and get back to real life women :)

my change and challenge: 60 days of no PMO

hopefully people will suport me. need all the help i can get, thanks :)

Comments

welcome

glad you are here. What do you think you can do instead of PMO during those times when you were likely to do that? In other words, what substitute behaviors can you find so you are not in the house or not likely to PMO? That is one of the keys to escaping this addiction.

hey emerson

thanks for answering. appreciate it. well ive been going through some really rough times here at my first year of college, theres nothin to do, its a commuter college so ive been alone all the time. i am transfering to arizona state next year so i will have plenty of opportunites with women. i do play tennis 6 days a week and work out 4 or 5 days a week, which keeps me busy. but at night i usually get horny and want to jerk off, usually out of boredom triggers my brain. but im willing to get past this now, ive had enough of this.

marnia

well im out of school in 2 weeks so ill be working 4-5 days a week, hittin the beach, gym, tennis, basketball, tanning. i will be out soooo much during the summer. and of course concerts and parties. i think this is the perfect time for me to go on this no PMO, i dont need it anymore, it was cool for the time i saw it, 7 years was enough of it. its like tryin to get your first high off of heroin, (ive never done it) so dont worry lol, but in connection to porn i was tryin to find somethin better and better everytime to get off which was terrible.

successful day 1 so far, no really sexual thoughts at all.

but i have found my true self during my reboots, like i just want someone to love and to care about rather than always thinking about sexual fantasies. theres so much more to life!

Day 2 finished.

good day. had a great tennis practice, gym workout. met some latina girl today, she wants to hang out. i talked to her for about 5 minutes, and i think this is an amazing sign! I started getting a little horny like i used to. i could feel the blood rushing into my dick. but still no hard spontaneuos errection but ill take it.

good sign?

Day 2 finished.

good day. had a great tennis practice, gym workout. met some latina girl today, she wants to hang out. i talked to her for about 5 minutes, and i think this is an amazing sign! I started getting a little horny like i used to. i could feel the blood rushing into my dick. but still no hard spontaneuos errection but ill take it. but the problem is that im supposed to hang out with her monday...

what should i do!?!? idk what to expect. im obviously not ready for sex.