I feel a lot better today than the previous week. I've gotten almost no work done during that time. I've realized that I have a tendency to overwhelm myself with a lot of things. I start out being super ambitious and motivated, and then I overwhelm myself. I also end up being really hard on myself for not succeeding. Failing hurts my ego, and my own fear of different things has prevented me from doing stuff.
I'm unemployed. I have been for a while. basically broke until last month. I am studying for the GRE, and I freak out and get angry for not working hard enough. I'll blame myself for not looking for work consistently. And honestly, my brain doesn't shut off and I get overwhelmed and avoid the (important ) tasks that are before me. I exhaust myself.