It always happens during the 2nd month of my recovery - a great deal of emotional pain. Right now, I'm experiencing fear, regret, depression, anger, a whole host of difficult feelings. I hate my friendships and I want new ones, more supportive ones. I've said this for a while now, and I'm still working on it. But I feel like I want to shed off my old friendships, which don't really serve me anymore, but I'm not sure how without a lot of drama and hurt feelings. I'm also scare of being alone and being unable to replace them with healthier people. Yet, I'm so tired of the depressed angry people I feel I have around me, but then I feel like I'm depressed and angry too.
Any suggestions on how to get out of this darkness?