I got stupid and my streak ended last night. I was feeling great about myself for once I felt in control of my thoughts and for the most part thing s were going well. I just was feeling happy. I was noticing differences in my sex drive as well. I took a girl out on a date and as soon as we kissed immediately had a great erection. Things were going well and maybe thats what got me into smoking marijuana again. I smoked one night because I couldnt fall asleep for the life of me and it truely did help. What I should have done was stop right there but the next day I did it again and I find that weed is an aphrodisiac for me. I just became so horny for some reason and my old urges started to re appear. I never went online or anything but thoughts of going outside naked for a walk gripped my body and I felt out of control once again. Old nasty habits that got me going started to sruge through my body like humping my bed and trying to suck my own dick. I know its strange but when im this high I feel like my old urges take over my whole mindset. I had enough power to not do any of this but just masturbate and I just crumbled afterwords. Its a real shame because I really thought I had it this time, 90 days seemed like a goal that was destined to happen. But theres no time to sulk over it, just picking myself up and getting into my usual routine because I felt most happy then, No more smoking, it doesnt help at all it just races my head but I already knew that.... I just wish I didnt feel so down about failing to reach my goal.