Classic - edged to porn after great blog post

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So I do have porn blockers, but just randomly, almost... fatefully. I accidentally (and by accidentally I mean don't even remember how) came across this Facebook page which manages to post pornographic pictures and not get banned. Obviously my porn blocker isn't blocking Facebook. So anyway, about 15 minutes after my last blog post I ended up edging to these pictures. I could feel myself going down the downward spiral and I would probably be back at Day 0 except that I pulled away. I didn't O and I didn't overdose myself with dopamine. This will certainly put my brain back a few days I'm sure of that, but I don't think it's the equivalent of a full relapse.

Something I am proud of despite this moment is that although I actually said aloud that I was going to cum, and that I couldn't help myself, I managed to pull my hand away and close the page. So... Yeah. Not happy with myself. But I'm not crushed either. Things are still a lot better than they used to be.

I almost didn't want to post this.. because I felt ashamed. So I forced myself too, because I don't want to make a fake reboot account.

*sigh*

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its cool ... dnt stress it

its cool ... dnt stress it too much .... made mistakes earlier in my reboot where i just edged myself to orgasm although my mind was tellin me no ... shit if anythin ur better then me bcuz i kno for a fact personally how hard it is to resist MO w a brain that was desentisized to porn, especially tranny porn at that ... keep truckin man, things will only get easier

I've been there

This occurrence was probably a very good thing for you. I didn't realize that I was addicted to porn until edging after making a similarly "great" post. May I suggest you strengthen your resolve by reminding yourself why it is that you truly wanted to do this.