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2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 8

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I can't believe I've gone over a week without releasing my bodily fluid. It's busting in there alright, but I've got to keep it in (unless it's via a wet dream).

It's crazy how much I glanced at every poster of a hot girl in the shopping centre (town for UK folks) or struggling to avoid staring at pretty girls walking past. When I have been getting erections today, they're really strong, and my penis is much longer.

2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 7

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I was meant to write this last night, but I completely forgot.

Fantasies going into overboard. Caught a glimpse of some erotic images and quickly switched them off. It's been a whole week and my penis is tingling. The skin is even wrinkled at the tip, revealing a bit of the fleshy bit. It always happens when I don't masturbate for a while. Also struggle to get erections at will. I think I'm in the flatlining phase. I wake up and I'm not erect.

2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 6

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Much more difficult day in terms of fantasies and trying to escape the severity of the letter I received a few days ago.

Tomorrow, I actually have nothing to do to kill off time. I could study for an hour, play on my game, read a book, but all of that will cause my mind to drift toward D-Day (Tuesday).

Just writing this to hold myself accountable. Tomorrow will be one week without PMO. Onwards and upwards.

2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 5

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Today was a little bit of an eye opener in view of the longer term benefits of no PMO.

I was at work today, and I felt happier in conversation. My reactions were one of happier feelings and smiling more. For a few minutes during an important discussion with the boss, my mind was sharper, and it enabled me to ask some critical questions.

I still feel tired and stressed out about the letter, which I'll find out about on Tuesday. After that (hopefully, a positive conclusion), I can evaluate how my body is so far.

Onwards and upwards.

2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 4

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Onto Day 4, the most difficult of them all so far. Fantasies keep seeping into my mind even when I'm keeping active.

I've also been really stressed today about a letter I received about some money. It's very strongly worded, and I have no idea whether it is a review or an interrogation. Needless to say, that is my weekend and Monday well and truly ruined. It is times like this when PMO would be a cop out for me. The anxiety is unbelievable. I'm so used to numb feelings that I'm not coping very well with my first test of stress.

2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 3

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Today was very difficult. Lots of fantasy, yet I am struggling to get an erection. Brain fog, depression, anxiety all still there. Not expecting it to for a while, but we shall see.

Found myself contemplating whether to masturbate, but decided against it. Tomorrow is Day 4, and that is when things could get very interesting.

Onwards and upwards.

2013 CHALLENGE - DAY 1

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Well, today just felt like a normal day after porn and masturbation. Sluggish, brain fog, depression, lack of concentration, thoughts drifting to what porn I should watch etc.

To be honest, I'm expecting the next couple of days to be bearable, as I used to give myself 2-3 day gaps between actual masturbation 'sessions'. So really, Day 4 is likely to be the start of the real challenging aspect of this, since my body will be wondering why it isn't flushing out the white stuff.

So all in all, a normal day, but I'm blogging as a means of accountability.

2013 CHALLENGE

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Hi folks,

I'm creating this blog entry as a means of restarting a challenge I was meant to undertake from January 1st 2012 as part of a 2012 CHALLENGE.

I managed to last a full month before giving in to my physical urges. (You can view my previous blogs and full background from 2012).

However, I am at a point in my life where I have really noticed a decline in my attitude, memory and skin, which is a worry. My memory is the worst. I have an exam in June, and the state of my brain is scary. It's worse than the majority of 60 year olds I know.

2012 CHALLENGE - January 20th - DAY 20 / 365

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Had a bit of a blip today. Clicked a pop-up by accident which started playing porn. I froze for a while in shock until I realised what it was, then I clicked off it. Had a banging headache straight after which disappeared five minutes later.

I've got such an appetite right now, I think I've put on weight. Starting my studies next week (distance learning) which will kill off a large chunk of time. I hope to hear back from job applications soon too.

Tomorrow will be my last daily blog before moving onto a weekly blog.

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