Long time no see people!
I just want to tell my story as an example and support to all of you who were or are in the same situation like I was.
I have been through a lot,and all of it has been my weakness,my inabillity to say no!
You can all read my posts and see what and where I was.
By the help of Marnia ,Gary and the members on this forum Emerson and rest of the guys ,slowly I got out.
I had my relapses,yes I was saying :"It is over"and then I went back in the spiral of PMO.
Now I reject porn and masturbation with such ease that I cant´t belive I was so weak once.
The only orgasm I have are those with my wife.
Porn and masturbation are totally out of the question.
The biggest danger is that little moment when you have to be strong,the momment when You say :"OK .I`ll just take a peek,or I `ll just want to touch my "hero" a bit,and off you go way back.
Trust me people ,I used to look vintage nude photos and lie to myself it is not porn,it is black and white art photo,but in a couple days after I was watching Jenna Jameson ...
Same like any other addiction it starts with small steps,but they all lead down the hole.
Now I know what is like to be normal ,small things arouse me,my wife`s hair,kisses,skin ,smell,I love her and we enjoy sex very much.
Few times I caught myself fantasizing about other women,colleagues from work who were flirting with me,and I say to myself:ˇ"stop ,you do not need this,you have loving wife,crazy sex life,you do not have to prove to yourself nothing,go to your wife and love her,hug her,make love to her.
Horniness is a sideeffect of PMO abstain,but that is good ,that is a sign that you are healthy,you just have to keep your horniness as a sign your body is telling you,I am healthy,I need my partner.
Now I am a father of two,boy 3 yrs old and a girl1 year old.
I love my family,I love my wife ,I love sex,I love life.
REBOOT WORKS, DO NOT QUIT!!!