I am at an odd point in my growth it seems.
On one hand, I know that karezza is something that my marriage needs. On the other hand, I am not all that motivated to do it right now.
My sex drive is quite low since I decided to reboot from M. In fact, my energy in general is low. I just feel like I want to be alone much of the time. Is this part of the reboot process?
Yesterday my wife came into the bathroom naked to get in the bath. I felt only a mild stirring of desire. Mostly, the response to seeing her naked was flat.
I suppose that I will just have to ride this out for now and have faith that things will pick up again. If my energy does not pick up in the next few weeks then perhaps I will have to move forward anyway. I will not allow it to go on forever.
I think that I am going to take a break from posting here for a while. I have been obsessing about karezza too much. I need a break from it. My body is rebooting and I am going to let my mind reboot too. I will be back.