but not bad. We had a wonderful date this afternoon at a concert with some of the great musicians of our day from the front row. The violinist in the chamber group is her teacher. The pianist was an inspiration to me.
I'm suffering ripples. I would like to connect with my girl more and hopefully head in the right direction. The connection is good, but I get ripples to men and I'm craving other women, but not quite - in a half-hearted kind of way. I want to breathe more and relax, but my porn mind is telling me otherwise. I'm glad I have 30 minutes a day to meditate, which is very helpful to train me to divert attention. I am dying for some sweet P**** which is not my girl's, and I know this isn't right. Things should work out, but it's just tough for a while, when I'm half-horny, not so much even physically, but I'm craving lots of sex.
I hope exchanges tonight will be relaxing and full of breathing, and not so horny. I'll have to ask my girlfriend, and explain to her where I am and that I need to heal. I hope she goes along with it. It would make my life very easy.