I'm weirded out a little. I know, give it time, you think too much. I wish I could help my thoughts and the feelings that go with it. It's pretty brutal. I was on my way to teach a new student and I was hoping he'd be cute and handsome. Then I got to the door and he totally wasn't and I was disappointed. After, I was fantasizing about fucking him with no anxiety. This is just not funny anymore and annoying. I think God is punishing me for something. After though, his uncle walks in the room and I had no anxiety, which was nice, but who knows what my sexual orientation is anymore. I hate repeating myself so much on this blog, but for the sake of journalism and dramatic effect, the moment these spikes go away and I regain attraction to my woman (if that really even happens), it will be a big cause for celebration. I will throw the entire Reuniting community a big pizza party!
My mood is better though, a little, though I have no real natural attraction and affection towards my girlfriend again, though I do see she's cute as a button and I was a total idiot for how I viewed her before. I'm sure bonding will change my attraction. I'm getting used to all these moods though, and it might be easier to deal with since my mood is better. I was having porn cravings earlier today. It's really tempting. This tells me my brain is rebalancing. I hope that every time I turn down a porn craving in favor of anything else, I will take down the bonds that I created in the past.