I paid for sex... I got a lot of money out of nowhere and decided to do it. I wanted to see if I was cured and I didn't want to find out in the moment with someone I actually knew and liked. It is definitely something I regret. It was terrible. It wasn't satisfying in the least bit. At the moment, i'm experiencing some chaser, and have no desire to watch porn or masturbate, but the whole experience turned me off to sex. After I left I just thought, "whats the big deal about sex? It wasn't that great" . Of course, i'm sure that having sex with someone you actually like and someone who likes you would be a totally different game. I can see the importance of getting to know the person and cuddling and all that stuff.
I just felt like I wasted a lot of money and also that I did something that isn't right to me by principle. Anyway, my body responded better than the last time, as I was more in tune with touch, however, I suffered from PE. I guess that means i'm not done recovering? I know that others have recovered from PE, so I hope I can too. I don't really know why it happened because when I was masturbating a few weeks ago, I could pretty much control it and last 10-15 minutes easily.