Went on a hike with my dad today. Jeez I underestimated that old man. He left me in the freaking dust. On the reuniting front I've kind of felt less horny lately but I started exercising as well. I've been making it a point to eat a bit healthier too. No more soda, no more fast food. I need to start taking better care of my body. Don't worry my fellow reuniters I'm not going to starve myself or anything crazy like that. I'm just trying to make a lifestyle change here. Because in my life the lack of confidence hasn't just stemmed from the porn induced ed. I could also stand to lose a couple of pounds.
And as I think I've said before if I'm making the change to cut out pornography. I may as well change everything that I want to change about myself. I looked at my bank statement from last month. Jeez I wasted so much money on fast food. It's a very sneaky bank drainer. Not to mention I had my trip out to the east coast that month so it was very easy to just pig out sometimes.
A couple of strange things happened too. My ex girlfriend signed onto yahoo messenger. But you know what I did? I freaking went outside and got on my skateboard and went around the block a couple of times listening to music. No sulking, no waiting for a word from her. And I felt mighty good about that.
Because my motivation has gone in a different direction. It's to make myself one bad ass mofo. So I'm taking up a few more hobbies. Like hiking with my dad. I also learned how to cook some stuff with my mom. I figure learning to cook for myself will be a useful tool in the fight against fatty foods. I've also got a group of people who want to start a band.
Because let me tell you something that made pmo'ing so easy to do back then reuniters. The freaking boredom. If I'm not bored I won't think about it. And to be honest I kind of already don't. But a relapse is always a possibility so I may as well keep on fighting as if it is hard. (Even though it hasn't been lately)
I'm motivated. I feel good.
The battle continues.