OK so I broke down and MO'd earlier today. I couldn't take it anymore. I had a horrible day today. Also, the sexual tension that had been building up for the last 26 days were just too much for me.
I know I shouldn't use masturbation (and certainly not porn) as a way of stress release. But nothing else I know would've made me feel so good. I suppose if there's any good news in this, it's that a) I didn't use porn, and b) I didn't use fantasy or mental images of anyone or anything either. Just the sensation alone was enough to send me over the edge. Not surprisingly, I also notice it's extremely difficult to keep from reaching orgasm - so I guess instead of having to worry about not getting it up, I have to worry about trying to keep from coming too soon. I imagine had I been in the room with an actual girl, I would've had an orgasm in about 30 seconds.
Anyway, I don't know how I feel about this. On the one hand, I am very disappointed I couldn't break my previous record of 29 days, especially being so close to it. On the other hand, I'm not sure if it matters. I don't know how much progress I've made........I figure the only way I'll know is to be with an actual girl. Until then, I kind of don't care. It's just been a terrible day and I'd like to get it over with ASAP.