Man, I've missed you guys…So, the past few years have been um….up and down and sideways. I've been involved in a pretty dysfunctional relationship, and it hasn't been easy. This is a person who has some serious issues. It isn't easy finding people (particularly men) who are interested in this approach to lovemaking and healing. This person in particular apparently has a fetish about anal sex. I didn't know this until a few years into dating him. It's been a stormy, on again/off again relationship. I've been pressured quite a bit, ultimatums and denial of affection and communication on his part are a regular occurrence. I've been honest with him about how I feel about anal sex (I have no interest in it, it would only cause me pain, I am not aroused by the idea of being in pain) and he get's very upset with me. Our differing views on love and sex basically make me feel like the relationship is doomed. It definitely hasn't been healthy, and has made me afraid of getting close to men in general. It seems like something on the psychopathic spectrum, but all that really needs to occur in the brain to put a person there is overstimulation of the reward center, and BAM-you've got a sociopath. I don't know what else to do, so to spiritually replenish myself, ground, and center, and reconnect with my highest intent and inner self, I have come back here to surround myself with those of like mind on similar healing paths, facing some of the same challenges. I am grateful this forum exists, and for Marnia and Gary.