I've been very lonely. Lonely because I'm self-employed with no one around, lonely because I have no woman in my life....just a bad place. Fantasy and masturbation has been an escape. I have to admit, as sad as it may be, its almost been a welcomed escape. There are reasons why it make it more difficult for me to find someone, which I don't feel like going into, but you would understand if you knew.
However, I was around two people today who probably have it worse than I do but should that really make me feel better? I'm thinking about going back to do therapy. REBT to be exact. Hopefully it will help with my irrational beliefs.