Everyone please dont stress! your erections will come back. I know it feels hopeless- i felt beyond hopeless-but things will rebalance. As with any addiction it takes time, patience, and desir/will for change. Dont focus on it too much because for me that just was a awful downward spiral. Let you body be what its going to be. You dont have anything wrong/your penis is not physically broken. Just needs some time to recalibrate to reality after porn :)
Wow its been a long time since ive been on here and I have moved away and will not be returning but listen here everyone: my life is epic now and here is what i did to make it happen
. I FIRST moved away from this forum which not to he a hater is a dwelling place for negativity and harshness, everyone!!!you will get a boner eventually i promise; marnia you are a saint and your compassion for us will get you a long way in life. But i dont know how you do it :p
Ok so right now I'm stuck in kinda a weird place sexually, for any other realm of my life I'm doing exponentially better. I'm rebooted but haven't been with a women yet. I am back to being incredibly horny just about every single day, as in waking up with a boner and my body saying...go reproduce; and in class with boners just needing release so badly. The problem with this is I have no release besides masterbation with no aid and that is getting boring as I am doing it too much.
Yo, watsup just a lil update. Got that chicks number in my chem class but supposedly she has a bf. I dunno why she's always lookin at me then ? Whatever she seems like a chick that has baggage I'll just keep being her friend and see what happens. Kinda went on a bender and looked at some boobs and sexy chicks like last Sunday or so and nothing happens anymore like my body wants none of that, just the real thing. And ever since I haven't been getting morning wood at all, compared to daily raging hard ons in the morning, and my dick has been kinda dead.
Whats up been awhile and I thought I'd give another update of what it's like over here in pretty much rebooted land for all you homies strugglin.
Motherfuckerrrrrr I just wrote such a dope long blog post and my iPad deleted damnit!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuckcyfufkickufukcuk. It was long though so I guess I will shorten it.
Ok been feeling a little OCD lately especially when it comes to an insecurity of mine. Back in 8th grade I was made fun of for having a supposed small penis and it has haunted me ever since. No joke. I have been obsessing about average size, how does mine compare, etc etc the past few days but it has haunted me for awhile.
Yo waddup, been awhile. School started this week and I feel great. When your addicted to looking at people have sex you feel dirty. Your mind is perverse and grimy. You don't think well and respond to social cues well. I felt like I had sme kind of disease when I was addicted to porn. Life just didn't flow. Now everything feels great. I have a smile on my face when I talk to people, conversation with people flows smoothly. I don't feel the guilt and shame of porn anymore that hovers over you. I masterbate now because I need too.
After moing just two days ago then three days before that I still had two wet dreams last night, my erection woke me up at like 4am, and I awoke with a massive hard on. This reboot thing works you guys, keep strong and persevere through it. I had the worst reboot ever, I did not feel happiness for 7-9 Total weeks and now I feel amazing, everyday.
Ok it's friggen 2:30am... I went to bed at 12 and proceeded to get like 3-5 erections w/o stimulation. I felt this horniness coming on before i went to bed..Feeling wide awake and horny I decided to give myself a genital massage/prostate massage. I've come to like prostate massages as when I was recovering they helped relieve horniness for me. And not gonna lie your butt is pretty sensitive [bigsmile] haha.I knew where this was going though, but I wanted to see if it was possible, as I've read, to milk your prostate without orgasm.... Guess what? It's not!....