Things have been quite positive lately, seeing a lot of my girl; the sex has been good, not perfect but the progress I've made in the last half year or so fills me with quite the sense of accomplishment.
One thing I will have attributed to my success away from PMO is the fact that I've been healthy. That is, I have not had any colds/flu etc. Problem is I always get sick with a season change. Mostly in September and the beginning of winter. I have had this pattern of illness for my entire life.
Here is where my dilemma is: Whenever I get sick, I have always had this uncontrollable urge to "self-medicate" with PMO. It makes sense: I can't do the things that I enjoy (Sports, hanging out with friends, going to work, etc.) I'm stuck at home, unable to sleep, feeling absolutely horrible. The only thing that would make me feel better would be PMO.
With only a week or so until september rolls around, it feels like I am bracing for an upcoming storm. I don't have any major urges these days to PMO, since I've been over 120 days now; but I haven't had to deal with a cold/flu/illness in that time either. This should prove to be one of my biggest major tests yet