Hello, I'm new here. I am 22 years old and I think I haven't been able to achieve an erection since the age of 18. I also suffer from social anxiety disorder because of a mix of the two I am still a virgin (I have never even kissed a girl). I am currently only five days into my reboot, although in between that time I had to delete over 10,000 files from my computer and saved them to a DVD and a flash drive and so I saw thumbnail size pornographic pictures (I will never watch them, but I have spent so much on them that my money would have been wasted). I have gone for nine days in the past before returning to the porn, that won't happen this time.
My libido is still very low although I fell asleep in the bath yesterday and woke up with an erection (it was decent but not perfect). I was lying on my back but although it was quite a solid erection it wasn't standing upright, it was lying on my stomach. I then noticed a slight bend at the tip of my penis and started touching it to see if I could feel the bend. Also, I have a strange situation where my sinuses produce too much mucous and deposit it at the back of my throat whenever I ejaculate. After finding myself with an erection after waking up I had the same feeling in my throat and I feel that my reboot had returned to day one after simply gaining a half-erection
Previously when I have gone without porn I have felt an increase in my libido from about the 3rd day, however, this is the 5th day and my libido feels as low as ever. I feel so lifeless but I must persist.
Can I ask a naive question, what exactly is porn because I see attractive women on TV and I want to masturbate over them, but I am stopping myself. Does this count as porn?