I am a 21 year old male, and I started my pornography addiction at age 12. Sounds common, right? Well, I can't help but think that my situation is different then most. First, my addiction at age 12 lasted only for about three months or so. I actually stoped my porn habits after about three months, because I just got tired of looking at porn. After a while, it was just no longer appealing to me. I didn't look at porn again until much late on, after I started college. So I had gone the rest of my adolescence almost completely porn free. I know most people start at 12 or 13, and this addiction lasts until their 20's, and that's when they realize they've got a serious problem. This was not me. Somehow, I just ran out of gas and stoped. However, during this three
Month addiction, I quickly escalated my porn use, both in the severity of the content & genre, as well as the time I was putting into it. I had escalated into more and more genres, altering my tastes, and deeply wiring my brain to visual stimuli. After I stoped the addiction, I realized that my libido was nearly at zero.
So, for the rest of my teen years, I had avoided porn. So one would think that I would recover, right? You would think that my brain would rewire, and my brain would re-sensitize to respond to real women, and of course my libido would return. Unfortunly, none of these things happened. At least my libido never returned. My brain did rewire from craving porn, but again, my libido never returned over all those years. Why is that? Is it because I never stoped masturbation during this time? I was never a compulsive masturbator. I had a regular schedule of maybe once every 3 days on average. But we have all heard how porn kills libido. So did my regular masturbation schedule prevent my libido from returning after all these years?