Ok, last night I have made up my mind.
I am going to go without Ejaculation for 2 months!
I have never gone so long before. THe best in the past I had achieved was 1 month (with slight masturbation but semen retention). Lately this year, I kind of quit when I reached 2 weeks, maybe because of loneliness and frustration (work, money, relationships). In face of these problems and worries, sometimes I just go "ah the heck with it, let's ejaculate, nothing to look forward to anyway!!"
This time, I am going cold turkey. I will try my best not to mtb, but I cannot guarantee it. When I get lonely, depressed, frustrated, my alter ego takes over and just wants to use mtb and touching to lift my mood a little. But this much I can guarantee, even if I backslide a bit, I can get my senses together and avoid getting to 80% of coming to the point of no return to ejaculation.
I have done 1 month in the past with good results = increased confidence, eyes and facial glow with life energy, great stamina, high charisma. I found that getting to 1 month is easy, when I live with a girlfriend, or with parents. That social company keeps my mind away from loneliness and depression. Although living alone now, I will find replacement activities when lonely.
First step: Yesterday I came up with an idea. I stuck a sticky tape around my penis. Do you know how impossible and obstructive that is when you try to masturbate or touch yourself when you have a sticky tape wrung around the neck of your dick? Unpleasant! This is to stop my alter depressed ego from taking over my senses.
Second step: I am going to avoid 2d sex scenes and videos totally. I know when i see porn videos, that horny personality will sometimes (not always) take over and try to say "Ah the heck with the PMO regimen!" So i am going to avoid it. I read someone said these fantasies are just 2D illusions, that got me thinking! Actually porn is not an addiction to me, but when I get lonely and depressed, I use it as a stimulant. It is a bait.
Third step: If I get a strong erection, I will channel the energy and circulate it to my other organs and other parts of the body to rejuvenate those energy centers. I need to do this to diminish the erection, because I found lately I can get very hard and big erection, and that pleasure sorts of makes me lose control a bit with mtb.
Fourth step: If I am lonely and depressed =, I will read, I will exercise, I will go out for a walk, I will chat with my friend, I will focus on a business, I will sleep, I will remember my goal, I will imagine success!
Fifth step: Mantra = "ejaculation is only 2 seconds of fake good feeling, you drop deeper into the abyss right after."
"Sex or masturbation has never really brought me any real happiness"
This is what I am going to do.
-No ejaculation totally for 2 months to see the improvements (MAIN GOAL)
-avoid mtb as much as I can so that I won't lose control
-No porn so that I won't lose control
Stopping or reducing ejaculation has been my goal since I was 18 years old. A voice in my head knew that ejaculation must be reduced, that voice just had the need to reduce it. Must be my Higher Self giving me advise. I had achieved 1 months no ejaculation many times, when I was 24, 28,29,30, 33, 34, and each time I saw improvement in my health, energy, stamina, concentration, and relationship. But lately I kept backsliding until, in 2012, at 35 years old, I could only get to 2 weeks.
I WILL SUCCEED IN REACHING 2 MONTHS, IF I FAIL I WILL KEEP TRYING OR DIE TRYING!!! SO HELP ME GOD!!!
Like the Allies in 1944 had to use great determination, sacrifice, commitment to start winning the war, I will make my own big push like D-Day!
23 APRIL 2012 = D-DAY 1