I'm back after reaching my longest streak of 40 days. I relapsed but will take both the good and the bad. The good is that 40 days was a record for me, after trying to beat this monster for a year and a half. The bad you already know...a year and a half!
I was riding high on the benefits but I'm not really in a mood to specifically talk about them. The back of my head hurts a little bit, which I know is the direct consequence of the dopamine splurge I gave myself last night and today. I woke up this morning thinking it was going to be a strong and disciplined day 1. Boy was I wrong, the chaser effect is a mothaF@#!
I will not be posting on here often. Instead I will stay away from the internet and focus on improving myself as a person by meditating, exercising, and working and filling every possible minute of my life with something productive to do. See you guys in about a month or so.