I am 19, about to turn 20 in a few days. Been watching porn since i was about 11 probably.I've been trying to quite porn since late last April. I made 2 weeks of the bat, and loved how alive I felt and all of the new feelings I had about the world. However, I struggled for the rest of the year, as I started living alone in a single room apartment and going toschool. But thankfully over the past 2 months I seem to have found the strength to avoid any P and M. I was feeling great, and made regular 2 week periods with no wet dreams. However, the past 5 days have been a different story. Still no p or m, but I have been having ejaculatory dreams for the past 4 out of 5 nights. The dreams are very vivid and typically involve me dreaming that I give in and start p and Ming. It really f*ckin sucks cuz I feel as if I have just been on a week long binge in terms of withdrawal symptoms and depression. But I feel like I've been staying strong, that I don't deserve this and that the world just isn't fair. It makes me almost dread going to sleep cuz I feel like a wet dream is inevetable. I haven't really had much female companionship or contact, only some kisses on a few random nights. However, I don't want to have to rely on another person to find pEace within myself. I realize tho, that there's nothing I can do about the past few days except move forward. I don't want to just moan and feel sorry for myself too much, so I have decided to start practicing yoga and martial arts again to help outlet some of the energy so it doesn't all manifest in my dreams. I just wanted to vent some of my frustrations about life and the fact i have to wait another 2 weeks to feel alive again, and figured this was the place to do it.