I stopped watching lesbian porn because of the guilt I felt during watching it despite watching it for YEARS.. (I'm 24)
I haven't watched it in almost two weeks because I couldn't take the feeling of feeling that way and I wanted to cleanse my mind of it.
But lately I've been feeling confused because of the fact that I watched it for so many years and stopped cold turkey, so now I'm questioning my sexuality even though I've NEVER been with a female.. I've kissed a female acouple of times but I was 8 years old and she was a childhood friend the same age as myself, so I honestly don't believe that counts because I didn't know any better.
Me being a Christian (some Christians are supportive) and all I'm not necessarily supportive of same sex marriage, but I don't condemn either.. That's YOUR life. You do as you see fit.
But I'm wondering are these withdrawal SYMPTONS? Because I've also read that the majority of females who watch porn choose lesbian porn because it's more sensual, and less hardcore. I get it, but I still feel guilt in even watching it.
My boyfriend tells me I shouldnt worry because I like lesbian porn. Wrong. I don't want to like it & by the power of God I haven't been tempted to watch it, and that makes me wonder.. WHY are these feelings coming up if I don't even feel tempted to watch lesbian porn anymore? It's like an ongoing questionnaire and I hate it.
Maybe once my brain rewires then I'll feel like myself? I want to feel like I felt before I started left lesbian porn because while I was watching lesbian porn I felt so secure with my sexuality that I loved men.. Which I do. I love everything about a man, but now I don't even feel attracted to my boyfriend like that because the stress has been so big.. Then all these questions come in with "what ifs".. Especially about the future..
Anyway, has anyone felt this way before? Male or female? Is it because of the countless lesbian porn I've watched that has me feeling like this?