So, i'm back after 2 months, and i'm glad to say, that i've gone 63 days no MB and no escort viewing/porn. I've definitely had an increase in confidence/sociability that I never saw before (i'm sure that me stretching my comfort zone has also helped in this). I went out with a girl a few times, but it ended. In that time, i kissed her once, and was super hard the whole walk home. Nowadays, i'm just keeping busy with school/hobbies while trying to meet girls on the side.
My question is regarding cravings the effects of a "rush". The past few days, i've had random cravings in the morning. The idea of escorts gets the fantasy starting, but when this happens, I redirect my attention elsewhere. That being said, I get a pretty intense rush, and I was wondering if anyone knew the effects of this. Aside from my cravings, i've been feeling really flat for the last few days, and I don't know whether the rush of cravings are related.
Even if they are, I don't know if there's anything I could even do about it. If I get a craving, I get a craving, not much I can do there. It's also weird going from getting cravings to having no sex drive/thoughts.
Any thoughts are welcome. I've also decided to essentially quit MB for good. My life is way better without it, and I can't handle it without escalating. The only O's ill have will be through sex and WD's (hopefully more from sex ).
thanks for reading.