I started Karezza with my girlfriend in april. I quit porn permanently somewhere in 2014 which resulted in me having a restored libido. But I was exhausted by our orgasmic sex, so I convinced her to experiment with not having an orgasm for one month. It was weird at the beginning, but after one month she said that she doesn't want to go back to normal sex anymore. YES! We are constantly drawn to each other, touching, happy. We even had some 'soul orgasms'. Absolutely mindblowing.
As well as taoist sex, Karezza includes semen retetion which seem to preserve sexual energy. But since april, two wet dreams occured. One last month and one this morning. I feel different after it. Like having made a long journey or had a long vacation and arriving back home. The journey could be the dream but could also be the time sexual energy was reserved. But this time, only a small amount of semen came out while the first WD was a full load: I was able to become lucid and prevent a full explosion but there was an orgasm nonetheless. The first time also made me feel lethargic and a failure: I failed at my mission to keep my semen inside. I don't know if this feeling of failure made me feel down the days after, or the actual loss of semen caused it.
First thing I did was trying to find answers. Have I lost my sexual energy? Will I be able to perform Karezza tonight? Is there a difference between a big load and a small load?
Skimming through several texts about taoist practices and Karezza, I got mixed answers. All say orgasm is te be prevented to preserve sexual energy, but on wet dreams there is no consensus. For example, this article:
http://sacred-sex.org/scriptures/hinduism/27-sivananda-effects-of-sexual... (see: Wet dream and voluntary copulation—A vital difference)
But the Karezza Method by J. William Lloyd, talks about wet dreams as failure:
What do you think: does a wet dream equal failure in Karezza?