Tonight marks 6 weeks of no MO. Getting closer to my initial goal of 60 days.
This week has been tough. I'm SLOWLY coming out of flatline - partial nighttime erections have me tossing and turning, some morning wood. But the cravings for P seem to be coming back and I ended up browsing a couple times this week. Mostly softcore image galleries, some hardcore pics, but no video. And NO relapse, although I came close.
I'm starting with the ups and downs again. During flatline it's mostly been up. Usually lots of energy, upbeat, optimistic. Now I'm starting to get moody and irritable again. But even at my lowest now, it's still head and shoulders better than how I felt more than a month and a half ago, when I was still in the grasp of PMO addiction. No matter what happens from this point on, I'll know for sure the process is worthwhile and there are incredible benefits to rebooting.
Still no prospects for a relationship, even just a cuddle buddy.
Working my ass off (literally!) in the gym. It's going to take some time, focus, and dedication to get where I want to be, but I know that if I can get through a reboot, shedding a few pounds is going to be a cake walk.