I thought I had better jump on and do a quick update because I didn't do one yesterday. I'm still going strong. 37 days PMO free. I have definitely leveled off the last few days cravings wise. It almost feels like a flatline, but not in a bad way. My mood is better, and I feel like I have had a more positive outlook on life. I still have a strong desire to socialize, but I'm more at peace with just getting my work done and muscling through the next couple of weeks. (I have a ton of deadlines approaching). My balls don't feel like they are going to explode any more, so that helps a lot. Plus, I think I'm getting better at controlling my fantasies. I noticed yesterday that I was starting to fantasize, and I actually recognized the little rush it was giving me. It felt a lot like the same feeling of watching porn. I can definitely see how fantasy is my brain's attempt to use access that porn pathway. Overall, I'm feeling pretty good. I think I'm starting to notice an improvement in ability to focus too, which is very timely. I think the first month of the battle against the PMO beast has been rough, but necessary. I don't feel that I am out of the woods by any means, but I do feel like I'm getting a better handle on the problem. I think the exercise the other day helped a lot too. I would like to get out and do that again when I have a chance.
So, overall, I guess I would rank myself as around a 6 or maybe even a 7 out of 10 today. I'm feeling good, but I'm expecting another crash at some point. Positive changes continue to develop,though, so I continue to be optimistic. I think I may also be starting to make some connections between my behavior and my emotional state too. I'll blog more on that later if when I have time and if I my experience is worth noting.
Good luck gentlemen! Keep fighting! May your blades never dull! As you were! ha ha.