Anyone suffered from HPPD?

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I have been recovering from HPPD (hallucinogen perception persistence disorder) for about 3 years. It is rather rare but for those who don't know it is a very strong anxiety/panic/depression disorder resulting from hallucinogenic drugs and is similar to post traumatic stress disorder. I have made great progress with this, but during my recovery, I was driven deeper into my porn addiction. On days when I felt like I just couldn't take it, I would self medicate by spending hours distracting myself with PMO. I really did not know what I was doing to myself and how much it was hurting me. Now that I have learned about what PMO can do to the brain, I wonder how much of my problems with mood swings and such were a result more of the PMO and less with the HPPD. The two biggest mistakes of my life by far. I was just curious if anyone else happened to have gone through HPPD and PMO as well.

Yes

I have visual snow and depersonalization disorder from doing salvia divinorum 3.5 years ago. It's been utter hell the first 2.5 years. But a year ago my journey began with finding YBOP, eating a paleolithic diet, daily exercise and taking omega-3/vitamin D supplements (both good for mood), quitting caffeine and marijuana and occsionally drinking alcohol. These things stabilized me and gave me a healthy outlook on life.

However the biggest thing I discovered was about 2 months ago - meditation (specifically, vipassana, the buddhist form). I'm starting to realize and accept that I cannot control the universe, that this condition was given to me as a test and that I need to go through it. I feel much, much, much better than I did 2 months ago (and I'm expecting it to get even better still, too). Combined with the above things, I feel I've gathered all the tools I need to lead a successful life in dealing with living with these disorders. They were truely debilitating. The first 2.5 years of my life I was suicidal and a drug addict, went to hospital for withdrawals and overdose. I'm pleased and proud of myself for coming so far. And I can only thank the power of sites like this.

Well done Luciiz

That's very impressive. Such changes take time and courage.

We'll watch your video. I had a friend who did TM, so I heard a lot about it's benefits. I always enjoy learning more.