I am a 22 year old student with a horrible sex life. I started wathcing porn at the age of 12 but back then it was just some pics or a plyboy magazine. After that until i was 18 i was watching dvds on my computer but it was nothing unusual or something that i ws doing every day. I just always liked porn. Back then i remember my erections were super hard and i could last as long as i wanted. In general i believe that i had way more sexual energy than my friends but i just wasn that good with girls. just some kissing or handjob etc. never sex. I went to hookers two or three times the first time just a blowjob at 16 i wasnt 100% hard maybe about 80% and i didnt ejaculate, the other time i had sex with again an 80% erection but i still didnt come. I believe that it was just performance anxiety. At the age of 18 i got a computer with a high speed connection and thats when all the bad things started. heavy porn use almost everyday from 18-19 many times a day until 4 months ago. I started having extreme anxiety without a reason didnt have alot of friends, smoking alot of weed and trying many other drugs, feeling all the time depressed, didnt like life, sometimes suicidal thoughts or just thoughts that i want to go away somewhere else. I didnt know what was causing all this staff i thought it was drugs and i never thought that masturbation could make me feel so bad. I lost many oportunities with girls that friends told me that were into me i lost friendships because i had friends who were going out looking for chiks and i didnt want because of my ''problem''. I wento to a prostitute another time and i ejaculate within 15 seconds from blowjob and i wasnt even semi hard. I remember that i could make myself ejaculate from porn within seconds with a semi hard if i wanted to. Then i tried to find what caused my premature ejaculation problem and i started googlin differemt sites. I found one site that suggested that i should cut masturbation emediately. I tried to stop it but it was difficult. At the same time i met a girl which was not exactly what you want for a relationship. But i said fak it its not that bad if you cant do it, ok embarassment etc but you have to do it sometime. I stopped masturbation and porn right after i found ybop. I was kind of avoiding sex with her because i knew that i couldnt perform. My reboot sucked the first two weeks were horrible almost crying for no reason feeling super depressed suicidal thougths and staff. In the first two weeks for a couple of times i took viagra because i was afraid that i wouldnt perform well she just gave me oral. i was about 75-80 % erect and i believe that it was just the pill. didnt ejaculate. I had 3-4 wet dreams i masturbated one or two times in the first two months just thinking of her and some dirty texting. i orgasmed from oral 3-4 times with her, All this in the first 2,5-3 months. In general i had days i was feelling very good like i was superman and other days where i felt horrible usualy after an o. After i told my girl what i was going through she understood me and told me that she will stay with me as long as i want she doesnt have problem with our sex. The trouth is that she had her issues and wanted to cheng her relationship with sex. She was easy with sex and haa had many many many partners before me.( i know because i asked). after 60-65 days with no porn at all i felt that i should try to have sex. Erections came up kind of easy but where always at 80% never really hard and i had premature ejaculatio issues.( I cant last more than 1-2 minutes) every time we are going to do it its always like that. The only good sign was 5 days ago where i had a 95% erection almost 100% out of nowhere and we had sex for like 5 minutes. It was way more healthy and natural than the other times but i dont know how it happened. maybe i was more relaxed idont know. 2 days ago was just as the others 80% erection and pe. I am at about 100-105 days without porn and i dont even want to see. i had 3-4 wet dreams m-o 2 times and orgasm with girlfriend a few times maybe about 10-15. I dont have morning woods maybe some but very weak and go in two minutes. Iknow that orgasm set me back but i cant tell her to not do anything for another month. She says that she loves me but i know that there is no way sh is going to stay with me with my horrible sex performance. I still have days where i dont feel good at all. I have to admit that i am doing way better no suicidal thoughts started activities met a lot of people in the last 3 months. I feel that i kind of start to live life again, but i believe that my reboot is taking tooooo dammnnnn longggg. What else can i do. I want to have a normal sex life. Sorry for the long post , sorry for my english.
oufffffffff i just said things that i had in me for a long time.
Please tell me what else i can do you have already helped me alot.