Hello all! My partner and I are very new to Karezza and are enjoying it very much. He's a recovering porn addict and uniting like this has gone a long way towards helping me heal from the feelings of betrayl and worthlessness. I thought he would balk at the idea, but he really has taken to it! Better than me, I think, lol. I'm finding it difficult to open up. I start having these intrusive thoughts, like he's going to get bored or even that I better not get used to this because he's just want to go back to normal sex like everyone else. I've also done a lot of reading about karezza so I almost can't help but think "Ok now I have to open my vagina more...now try to send energy from my breasts....oh he's not relaxing, aren't we supposed to relax completely?...I'm not feeling anything in my chest...aren't I supposed to?"
It takes nearly 15-20 mins for me to start getting in the zone and leaving those thoughts behind. Is this normal? How do I get out of my own head and just enjoy the attention without feeling like he isn't sincere or feeling resistance to being vulnerable?