So I was on this forum a few months back and I made it to ~1 month without PMO. I eventually caved - on my own, baked out of my mind, horny, one thing led to another. Anyway, I eventually convinced myself that PMO wasn't my problem. I thought it was just nerves and all I needed to do was get out there in front of a real woman and I'd be fine. I did cut down from daily to about 3 times a week though.
I was able to MO without fantasy or porn which was great, and I still can - though I haven't done it in a while I'm able to excite myself with just my hand.
So yesterday I mustered up the courage to visit a Gentlemen's club (it's legal and fully regulated in my country). The girl I chose was lovely - attractive, nice body, personable and sweet. We got to the room and had a shower together and to be honest I was feeling fairly relaxed. I wasn't shaking with anxiety as I have in the past when given the opportunity of sex.
But alas, nothing. My little fella down below wouldn't budge. Cold and floppy the whole time. WHAT THE F**K? Now I know somethings wrong.
In one way it's extremely depressing - I was hoping to finally get laid, but I guess on the other hand I now have the motivation to actually do this. Pah! To be honest I'm a sea of emotions right now. I feel like my manhood is in jeopardy and that if this doesn't work I'm going to be stuck alone forever. So fingers crossed I guess.
Reassuring words please!
P.S. She was really cool about it. She was a little surprised I was there and said I should be able to easily pick up girls so that was nice of her to say.