It was a mistake to think it was better to stay away from all women for the duration of the reboot. It was a decision that came from fear. I was scared of having that awkward conversation explaining my addiction and the reboot process.
But now I understand that when you finally start coming out of the flatline phase and start to have cravings again, you really need to have replaced P with something in the real world.
Almost daily now, I'm browsing softcore P galleries. I'm really scared I can't control it and I'm undoing everything I've accomplished in the past 6 weeks. I feel I might as well have relapsed. I'm completely down on myself, depressed, and most of all, craving sex.