masturbation .. help me out!

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hi, my name is vivek, age 20. i have been doing masturbation for a long time, all the time i did not think that i was really addicted..

i try to avoid it , but cant.. i sit near PC.. and just think not to do it.. i play games... i get irritated even though i don't know the reason...
i just get irritated and become dull and sad until i open private browsing on net..

many times i manged my self, i even explained my self to do real sex with my classmates, but my brain forces that masturbation
is safer thing... when i am alone, i think of doing masturbation .. its the first thing in my mind,, the moment when i try to avoid it, i get
visuals of opposite sex private parts in my mind.... i could manage at my college hours,, reading something.. but when i find alone my self.. i do it once explaining my self that it would be the end.. but just do it do it and do it.. without any reasons .. i feel anxited, depressed at a times.. and also not able to concentrate on my studies,...

i cant bare it... i cant think of pleasant things.... am always tensed , feeling insecure, worried... my confidence levels are decreasing...

i need some help badly...

my parents are divorced at the age of 15, basically i am a very ethical person.... very thing is fine in me except being addicted to porn and masturbation... i even have the fear of getting insulted and feeling ashamed if some one knows this.. and i feel dull for next two days when i do it.. i could hardly manage for 1 week or so , that too when i am too busily involved in college..