I haven't been on the site in a while. I haven't seen P in years. I've done 40-80 day reboots a few times in the past but I think I was fantasizing quite a lot. Ok, I know I was. Between the last reboot and the one I am about to describe, I was going maybe two or three weeks between some MO sessions with really intense fantasies, some special fantasies, and most recently some gay fantasies about someone I know.
So now I'm in a new place, literally and figuratively. Moved into my own rather kickass apartment. I've gone 39 days with absolutely no PMO. No fantasies either, for the most part. I would say if I have a fantasy it lasts for 10-20 seconds and I catch it and that has happened maybe 5 times in the past 39 days. Now I'm a little scared, because, well, there's so little activity in a certain area.
I just put myself up on one of the dating sites, but I'm kind of scared. I went on before and met some women but it's just horrible to think of that moment when everybody's naked and somebody is still dormant. This only happened with the one person, but it was traumatic enough that I can't imagine things working out with someone new.
I've heard reports of guys going to prostitutes to see if things would still work, but I don't want to do that. But I'm finding it hard not to obsess and worry about this. And it's going to effect my demeanor when I meet new people or try to proceed with them. It's going to make me nervous unless I have some sort solidity. And I don't mean that kind. I mean mental and emotional solidity about it.
I'm not sure what to do. I'd especially like to hear from guys who had to face these types fears.