I have read several discussions about related issues (POIS, porn addiction, sexual exhaustion)
But i am not sure what is the thing i am suffering...
I am 23 y old.
I dont watch porn generally , only twice a month or none. But i was extreme masturbator more than 5 times per day.. 5 -10 every day.
Most problems are mental ,cognitive. Brain fog,cant concentrate,feeling tired. My analytical thought was impaired and felt stupid. I was getting used to these symptoms but had difficulties doing my job and studies... Days passed and couldnt do anything.... Also i couldnt find words to speak..
I had tried in the past to quit masturbation and then keep it minimum . When i was younger after quitting masturbation changes where rapid. Within a week i got many new friends and found the best girlfriend i ever had. Sometimes during that period i felt tired but with little rest i was very alive again.. During masturbation periods nothing makes me feel good and energetic. I don't know if its a placebo but it works for me. It works better i believe if you do physical exercise and not sitting home all day.
I dont believe that i am addicted to porn but was addicted with hot girls photos. I was seeking all day hot girl photos not nude most of the time. Fantasizing almost impaired and was more mechanical thing..
I am 4 day without masturbation , but didnt know that fantasy was that bad ,but seems it is. Fantasy and watching photos without masturbation builds up psychological pressure but i believe that makes things a bit worse , i feel the urge to do it something but at the same time i feel bad disoriented.
As i am gettting older, when i abstain the benefetis come slower. During these 4 day period i managed to do lots of stuff , could design some innovating stuff for my projects (before it has impossible like brain stopped working),easier to focus and accomplish tasks i have to do. I became a bit more fluent than i was and i cant sleep more than 6-6:30 hours but i feel that they are enough...
I was determined to quit it since i had sex 2-3 times per week,but after 2 weeks of abstaining i had premature ejacuation during sex for three times in a row so i gave up in week 3..Maybe b-complex supplements were the culprit for this but i was afraid and started masturbating again....
So i am not sure what i have. Because even i quit masturbation etc during an 8 day vacation for example with my gf and sex once per day i dont feel any better...
So i am not sure if i have something else.... At least i know it helps to reduce it and i am going to meditate again and quit fantasizing stuff that cause harm.
Finally i would like to say that for a period i was addicted to strange underground porn images with violence mutilation etc.
What do you think ?What can i do ?